This man I know gave a testimony in my church. He'd been in a motorbike accident the previous day and had his pinkie finger cut off. Yet he stood there with a huge smile on his face, thanking God. I felt like asking him to shut up. Was it irony or just plain insanity? Well, it turns out after examining his injury, the doctor had told him that the whole hand would be amputated. And since he was a carpenter, that would have been a major disaster. So I can totally understand that he was grateful to keep his hand, but I wasn't over the fact that he'd lost a finger. I realized that this man was in a place, emotionally, that I couldn't access. That he had something that I wanted but wasn't sure how to get it.
So there I was walking through Central Park, New York. Four years ago, in this same city, I had a serious falling out with close friends, which led to a cascade of other events that unmasked personal issues that I've been struggling with. That's when it dawned on me that perhaps all this time, I was the problem. And that I was holding on to things such as unforgiveness and selfishness that had become a hindrance to me.
Then I thought about God. A verse in Psalms says that as high as the sky is above the earth so great is his love for those who seek him. He loves me more than my mind could ever fathom, and this fact challenged me to be better. It challenged me to let go of whatever was holding me back. Maybe this trip to New York wasn't random after all. It was time to clean out the attic. And maybe after doing that, I could finally behold the full measure of joy that the man had experienced. The kind of joy that makes you praise God even when circumstances dictate otherwise. I thank God for opening my eyes to see my faults; I thank God for new beginnings and I definitely thank God for New York City (ah-may-zing)!!!
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